The Joyous Holiday Solely Held Together by Materialism by Enna Mari [A Short Story]

The Joyous Holiday Solely Held Together by Materialism 

The Ultrarich. A title coined by those of the lower classes. It’s Saturday and the day of the week didn’t matter to her. The bustling streets and filled corridors of rushing people with hefty bags of clothes, kitchenware and toys seemed to suggest overwise. The holiday season had become a war of purchase and gift giving, not to see the joy of others but to out buy each other. What was significant lay in the hands of the individuals, for Laura this was a leisurely stroll, the smell of hot chocolate and cinnamon accompanied by the cheerful jingle of Christmas carols and the high-pitched singing of Mariah Carrey and Ariana Grande only added to her jovial mood. The holiday season was a welcome one, unlike many families, this young woman did not need to consider the amount she was spending or what she was buying.

It's Saturday, the weekend and sweat gathered on the assistant’s brow despite the cold winter air, the bags of heavy items taunted at her of what she did not have. While others returned home for the holiday season, she would be hurrying alongside this woman, in the heavy woollen coat with a fur trim and red bottomed heels, sprayed by a mist of Jo Malone perfume which was overpowering and just screamed money.
Laura turned around, flashing a bright smile, ever since getting her pearly veneers she was even more confident and self-assured to the point where every fake smile was sickening and dripping with strawberry syrup. It only furthered the agitation that the assistant felt, looking at her, every item cost multiple thousands, and she only seemed to wear these items when you had seemly forgotten she even owned it.

This part of the outlet was lined with designer shops, from Louis Vuitton and Gucci, the more notable brands for showing off, to Mulberry and Hermes, where every item was not covered in their signature logos.
To most, this area was just a pass by, filled with envious stares into darkly lit stores where smartly dressed salespeople in crisp attire waited in white cotton gloves ready to present you with luxury items beyond the amount of money many held in their bank accounts. Instead, the average person was hoping in their minds that perhaps this holiday season they would get that thing, you know, the one item that would make everyone love them, the one item that could elevate their wardrobes and that one item could make all their problems go away.

Laura skipped down the warmly lit path surrounded by bright red bows with golden trims and green wreaths made of stringy pine taking in the scent of Christmas treats like fruit cakes and spiced rum. She confidently headed towards the black store with the white Cs, Chanel, where the sales assistant greeted her by name and a friendly smile guiding her straight to the plush sitting area and bring out the green glass bottle of San Pellegrino natural sparkling mineral water and pouring it over glistening ice cubes with a freshly sliced lime in a sparkling crystal glass. The bottle of Champagne lay untouched, the gold foil seal tightly wrapped. This sales assistant knew what Laura liked, she never forgot what Laura wanted, after all was one of the only people in this area to come every season, not just once but multiple times and her attitude was memorable too. This winter season this was already her third visit, Laura had placed an order for her one of her many friends. The only reason the sales assistant knew was due to the fact Laura had all said so in the ten minutes she been here, the bag was from last year’s spring season and to Laura, the thought of buying last year’s item when it did it not hold any special merit was something she could not be caught purchasing.

The sales assistant brought out the black canvas box, opening it carefully and drawing out the white dust bag, the smell of earthy leather was furthered in the dim store with its few customers, the sound of soft jazz played in the background lulling the people inside despite the impactful purchases that were being made. Her gloved hands presented Laura with the bag, who haphazardly waved at her without making eye contact, whatever was on her latest iPhone seemed more important than the person right in front of her. Laura was unaware as her assistant reached for her Amex Black card and tapped it, quickly entering the pin while the sales assistant packed the purchase into the crisp, stiff carboard bag and held it out to Laura. With a look of disgusted, Laura nodded to her assistant who was busy shovelling seven bags on her already creased arm.

It’s Saturday and the harmonic sound of carollers smothered by plaid scarves and fur trimmed Santa hats pour their hearts out to merry songs accompanied by excited bystanders giggling and sniffing wit from the cold while children run around with sticky hands from gingerbread men and swirled candy canes, as the chime of coins clinking as they fall into the empty cookie tin in front of the happy carollers which would usually be expected to contain a sewing kit. Soon the sound is drained out by the soft breeze of the heated lobby and the sound of Michael Bublé’s It’s Beginning to Look a Lot Like Christmas draws Laura further into the building. The white marble floor with gold veins and tall vases of holly is reminiscent of festive balls and Laura’s red bottomed shoes slide across the polished stone and she spins, drunk on the mood and music.
The assistant hurries her along to the hall of elevators, the six golden doors reflecting them are welcoming to those dressed well and shaming to those who aren’t judged by society. The light ding of the orange, glowing triangle declares its journey upward, the two board on without any other travellers and stare as the doors slide, closing off access to the world.

It opens once again to reveal a darkening entrance where well-dressed waiters in black satin waistcoats with three perfectly round buttons and crisp dress pants carry overflowing cocktails and thoroughly prepared meals. The hostess greets Laura before throwing a curt nod to the assistant as she checks the name of the reservation, once it is confirmed she leads the guest through the winding restaurant, where the clatter of silver wear is strangely absent. Within the individual cubicles and rooms, businessmen in neatly pressed suits with overly cheerful ties which seemed more like a compensation for their actions sipped at brownish liquid which was no doubt liquor. A group of middle-aged women in animal prints huddled around one hysterical woman who had just discovered her husband in bed with her sister rush on about how she should have seen the affair coming. These people all lived in their own heads that was what made this place so unusual, only the elite could dine here, and this somehow made Laura feel at ease.
The hostess neared a room where the door seemed paper thin as brash laughter escaped in cascades, some uneasy and while others were light in mockery.

The private dining room was filled to the bream with every designer brand possible, bags and coats were hung on the backs of cushioned chair while their feasting owners bragged and chatted about their latest trips to the warm tropical Bahamas and the snowcapped mountains of the Alps. The silver wear clinked as wine glass were raised and cheered, laughter and chatter filled the air, which no longer smelled of spices and Christmas time, instead it smelt of garlic and fresh herbs overpowered by dusty perfumes from Jo Malone and Le Labo mixing together to create a nauseating concoction, a representation of the very people present within the walls. It was Saturday but the day of the week did not matter as everyday was planned and scheduled as they liked, as they were rich, which therefore meant they were better than others.

Outside the twenty-six-story structure, the bumpy concrete of the sidewalk made Laura frown was her sharp stilettos snagged, shoppers past by huddling like penguins and rushing to escape from the frosty winter air. A homeless man with a cardboard sign sat outside the extravagant and frugal building. He shook his white paper cup, hoping today humanity would have some sympathy and spare change, he hunched in the cold, a ragged purple patchwork blanket wrapped around him, and his breathing was caught in the air reminding people he was human too.
Laura scoffed at the man on the corner, she thought these “types of people” were a menace to society, little did she do to pause and consider how this man had gotten here. For most people it wasn’t a choice, many people would choose to live in a comfortable house than on the streets if it can down to that, she seemed oblivious to addiction and other unfortunate circumstance as she could not be in their shoes. This man on the street corner had a story too, he had once lived in similar conditions to Laura herself. His wife had taken everything from him, money, family, friends, and business, he was left with nothing and had been thrown to the streets. For this man, the day of the week mattered, the time of year matter, perhaps he would strike some luck soon and find a way out of this situation.


This short story inspired by Elizabeth Tan’s writing style and specifically the short story “A Girl on a Unicorn in the Middle of a Shopping centre.” It was actually for a school assignment, which was practice for our upcoming sac. However, although the assignment required you to write a 500-word story, I well exceeded the required amount, since I enjoyed it so much. The story obviously critics materialism and consumerism but is mainly about how the holiday season has lost its meaning. So, I decided to share my first short story on my blog, and I hope it entertained you.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read it,

-Enna Mari

Smart Ovens for Lonely People by Elizabeth Tan

Smart Oven For Lonely People by Elizabeth Tan 
Trigger Warning: not providing one for this book.

Age Rating: 17+ [only two stories with mature themes]

Overall Rating: 5 out of 5

Genres: New Adult, Science Fiction, Surrealism.

A Spoiler Free Summary
A short story collection full of relevant social issues in conjunction with surrealist elements that touch on both degenerate utopias and dystopias which questions the readers’ belief if there is actually a difference between the two. Overall, for those who don’t want to analyse the stories’ content, it is just a fun short story collection to read.

Review
Tan’s unique titles and stories are eye catching and enticing. I loved her short story collection which was introduced to me through school [specifically literature] and is definitely a book I would recommend to others. Apart from her in-depth way of writing I was so happy to find an Australian Asian author, especially part of the VCE curriculum and I hope her work will continue to be there. She tackled many relevant topics and exaggerated the world we live in which draws us close, so we understand and see that this saturated version of a degenerate utopia is actually what our world is becoming. In stories such as “A Girl Sitting on a Unicorn in the Middle of a Shopping Centre” it criticised materialism and consumerism in a more advert way and expressed a girl who was simply looking around a shopping centre. This is very much like the reality of our world and “Ron Swanson’s Stencilled ‘Stache” is about a the take over of social media and how many things that seem real but are just a façade. I really enjoyed the way she wrote some of her descriptions were so satisfying [I have added some of my favourite moments in the quotes section] and definitely her titles were some of the most interesting ones I’ve read, which really encompasses her personality of her short stories. As I read this a couple months ago for school [even earlier when I read it for the first time], my initial thoughts aren’t as clear, but I still wanted to share this book, the main thing I remember is how refreshing the novel was from the sea of classic literature school required.
I also would just recommend her short stories in general because the writing is so engaging, and the stories are just very enjoyable in general.
School had also required me to write a short story based on one of her stories, before my SAC, we wrote practice stories and I wrote on inspired by the elements of “A Girl Sitting on a Unicorn in the Middle of a Shopping Centre,” I’ll be sharing that towards the end of the holiday season as that plays a part in the story so please keep an eye out, in the meantime please check out Elizabeth Tan and her work, including “Smart Oven for Lonely People.”

Quotes
“Grown-ups had a way of doing that-flattening their fears with concrete, building something neat and pretty on top, as if life really were a picnic.” [Night of the Fish]
“A man-shaped membranous sac of blood.” [Our Sleeping Lungs Opened to the Cold]
“This gentle darkness, this soft temple. This loving body, unspooling from the harness of man-made meaning.” [Our Sleeping Lungs Opened to the Cold]
“It please her to be a girl and to be like other girls because the best people in her life are all girls, so why wouldn’t she want to be like other girls?” [A Girl is Sitting on a Unicorn in the Middle of a Shopping Centre]
“Or a kind of perfunctory empathy, the detection of a blip in his beautiful universe, something to rectify as soon as possible so he could keep sailing on?” [Smart Ovens for Lonely People]
“I came to be in this very predicament, I would lie awake in the cold indigo light, nerve-bitten, twitching, strapped hopelessly to consciousness like half an avocado to one of those avocado saver things.” [Ron Swanson’s Stencilled ‘Stache]
“She messaged the red lines intersecting her torso and tried to love and understand and honour her body into something less conspicuous, something to carry without apology.” [Washing Day]
“The sky becomes the sinister colour of cordial.” [Lola Metronome and Calliope St Laurent Having a Picnic at the End of Civilisation as We Know It]


Recommendations
If you are looking for a short story collection that tackles materialism, consumerism and many relevant issues today in a unique and over saturated way, this is a wonderful story collection for it.

Pros
It’s a short story collection so the information is easy to digest and especially good if you are trying to get out of a reading slump.

Cons
Nothing in particular.

The Lies We Tell by Katie Zhao

The Lies We Tell by Katie Zhao
Trigger warning: Stalking, murder, hate crime, racism, kidnapping. 

Age rating:14+

Overall rating: 4.75 out of 5

Gernes: Young Adult, Mystery.

A spoiler free summary 
Anna wants to start a new at her local university. She wants to excel academically and create new friendships, all while ignoring her childhood academic rival, Chris Lu. But there is another reason which has brought her here, the unsolved murder of her former babysitter enraptures her in morbid fascination. 
When the Lu bakery is attacked, Anna links it to the unsolved crime and she can’t help but feel its underlining motives and is forcefully drawn to Chris. After feeling threatened and no longer comfortable in her own school, the two come together to figure out who and what is behind these targeted attacks. 


Review
I quite enjoyed this novel, rather simple in its nature but appreciated that it discussed heavy themes that are incredibly relevant today. The beginning of the novel was more on the slower side and the real mystery began about one third of the way through. The two main characters, Anna and Chris are very likable and were especially relatable to me. I loved seeing the representation in the novel but also with the dark and sad side that comes with living in a country such as America where being Asian is the minority. As the story follows a string of hate crimes, from murder to stalking, it reflects the spike in hate crimes against people of Asian descent during beginning the covid pandemic [and onwards]. Katie incorporated real life situations that everyone has lived through/seen on social media. She shines a light on these issues through a dark novel and reveals the fear some of us may have. It pulls focus to it and for especially people who have never been a minority shows the thinking and inner feelings of the characters, which is unfortunately still very relevant today. Though some may disagree, I appreciated that romance did not play a major role in the story, although the blurb was a little miss leading. 
The parents of Anna and Chris were not forgotten and are some of the primary characters in this story, it thoroughly explores the stereotypical expectations and the inner rivalry to achieve the best thing possible out of everyone present. 
The writing is simple and easy to understand yet intriguing, the story is slower paced at the beginning but may still be a good read for those in a reading slump. 
Depending on the expectations one may have for the novel, the rating may differ on social media, many made it seemed to have academic rivals to lovers which is true but it should not be the sole reason to read this novel as it is not a large component of the novel. 
Yet again, I was quite excited to read a novel by Katie Zhao and it did not disappoint. I was also able to really appreciate the reference to How We Fall Apart, a small nod to the other novel.
The reference to a music group was a fun find in the novel, which speaks to the comfort and energy artists can give someone in hard times no matter the genre. 
Another personal point to mention, while I was reading this novel, there was almost a parallel universe type thing which might have inspired a short story [if I can get to it].  

Quotes
“There was someone there with her, and yet, she had never been more alone.”
“That was one of the first things I looked from whenever I was a new setting, and seeing that the crowd wasn’t totally white was reassuring.”
“I didn’t feel safe being me any longer, and I wondered if I would feel comfortable in my own skin ever again.”

Recommendations  
If you are looking for a medium paced mystery centralised on racism while pursuing higher education this book is for you. It focuses on two main characters navigating a period of time riddled in hate crimes and racism. Although the book starts off as medium paced novel, the last half quickens up and the book will be over before you know it. 

Pros 
Explores relevant issues of racism and hate crimes especially spiking during the height of the covid pandemic. The main characters are Asian and discuss some of the family dynamics as well.  

Cons 
Wished the novel was longer so we could see more of the character growth. A trigger warning would have been good, especially since it discusses topics that are very relevant today and may be triggering for some. The blurb is a little misleading as it hints towards a more dramatic rivals to lovers trope for the two main characters and this can lead people to have different expectations. 

Note: I read this back in January but still wanted to post a review since I had been waiting for this book to be released. 
 










Violence Ended Delights by Enna Mari [Based on Chloe Gong’s Duology]

MAJOR SPOILERS for These Violent Delights and Our Violent Ends by Chloe Gong.

Violence Ended Delights by Enna Mari [Based on Chloe Gong's Duology] 

Our streets run red,
But our hearts in shreds, 
The love that was meant to hold,
Received, what was meant to be told,
It’s forbidden and lost,
But we wondered at what cost,
The hate that lined the lanes,
A monster going quite insane, 
Rampaged and killed someway,
Bugs dug the brain preparing to stay,
As streets line with chaos,
We stand without remorse,
We were grown and sold,
Working to be as good as the old,
Hoping we will be great enough,
Perhaps they are, they are rough,
Silk tided after a knockout,
The intention to kill was without,
Surprised, yet a trigger was aimed,
They were then brought, shamed,
Panic and love grows within, 
Someone was about to win,
A sacrifice was going to be made,
Someone was shot, becoming a fade,
No one could know of the blood spilled,
Of family and the next heir killed,
The rules broken, a stunned moment,
A forgotten friend, the component,
Shocked and struck the love turns,
A forced conversation churns,
While city undergoes revolution, 
We said the words with absolution, 
No more leaving, together at last,
A time just as short as the past, 
A fire of sacrifice, a claim of life,
Façade of safety and a security strife,
They ended by laying side by side,
Names carved in stone, but everything feels lied. 


Violence Ended Delights is a poem I wrote quite a while ago on Chloe Gong’s duology: These Violent Delights and Our Violent Ends. I wrote this before Foul Lady Fortune so I did not know anything that might happen to any of the characters in the duology. The main reason I wanted to write it was due to the way Chloe wrote the books, her writing style is so unique and beautiful, as well as her overall storylines which are delightfully composed. I also loved her books and this was a way I could spotlight them. Although the poem is quite long, longer in length than what I usually would write, it hardly capture the duology but those who have read it will understand the very niche references.

Life like Water by Enna Mari

Life like Water

There are days when everything feels simply,
Almost like a glass of clear fresh water,
But then we remember water is complex,
So much depth, so nourishing yet dangerous,
It can take anything anywhere,
Change lives and cause deadly deaths,
Yet we hang to it for dear life,
Acknowledging everything good and evil,
So why can’t people do that about me?
They only choose to see the side of the
Smile filled face, fresh of tears,
Ignoring everything wrong 
Even when I’m close to the edge, 
With nothing left but a cry for help,
They laugh at the ridiculous thought of it,
Why see it when my problems aren’t 
Affecting their lifestyle in any way. 


“Life like Water” is an original poem written by me, like the poem’s title suggests it uses the versatility of water to follow the thoughts of someone longing to be needed and seen, due to their struggles, and it feels lonely. It emphasises the need to be make an impact on the people around them to have a sense of accomplishment to the point where the person does not care if it is helping someone achieve something negative or positive. It captures the emotions many may feel of wanting to make an impact, even if they are surrounded by love.

The last half of the poem focuses on the way some may perceive others, those who are absorbed in themselves or simply do not care for the subject of the poem. The person is crying out for help, whether that be emotional support or something else, but their invisibility is being highlighted so the person acknowledges they are not the people they should seek and returns to wearing a mask.

A Mother’s Fear (the innocence of a child) by Enna Mari

Anger sparks within her eyes, 
Flooded with colours of the night,
A broken shield made of lies, 
Gives the child, a big fright. 

Now a sound, a wail, a weep,
The Mother tries to calm the little sheep,
"Hush," she whispers as she prays,
Hoping the child won't run away. 

This is part two of the poems that are based/inspired by William Blake’s “Songs of Innocence and Experience.” Unlike the first one, this one is more explicitly obvious that it draws from Blake’s poetry, especially focusing on the naivety of the child where the simple actions of an adult can frighten it.

Though it is not what I usually write in regard to poetry, it is still not too bad. I personally prefer “The Differences” more, perhaps it is because it may be based off myself. Like the previous William Blake inspired poem, it was written for a school assignment and has an accompanied analysis. If any of you are interested, let me know and I’ll attach it. 😊

The Differences by Enna Mari

Sharp slitted eyes, 
Face made of slides, 
Features as round as thee. 

A beautiful smile, 
Kind-Hearted child, 
The world will see you differently. 

This poem was written at school for an assignment. The task involved using the themes depicted in William Blake’s poetry, “The songs of Innocence.” I did previously write about certain literary techniques used and the brief analysis of some of the lines, but I thought that may not be something of interest [although if it is let me know and I’ll put it up]. But for now, I’ll leave this without a clear conclusive definition of the meaning and so it is yours to interpret.

Loveboat, Taipei by Abigail Hing Wen

Loveboat, Taipei
Trigger warning: Racism, internalised racism, stereotyping. 

Age rating:14+

Overall rating: 5.2 out of 5 

Genres: Young Adult, contemporary romance.  

A spoiler free summary
Ever Wong is unexpectedly sent away by her parents to Taipei. She arrives anticipating a strict educational program, but she could not be more wrong. The Loveboat is place where adults are “oblivious” to the continuous nightlife and hook-ups. 
Will this be Ever’s chance to be who she wants to be and give her the courage to chase her actual dreams rather than her parent’s expectations?

Review 
I loved Loveboat, Taipei so much, there were so many moments where I was really able to connect to the main characters. This book was one I annotated quite a lot [I’m not really an annotating reader] for the first time in a while and I really related to many of the thoughts and feelings of the main character, such as feeling too Asian in one environment and not Asian enough in another. It made my heart swell with seeing so much representation in one novel, it felt as if the author was trying to fit as many different East Asian voices as she could to make up for the lack of representation in the literary world and this novel definitely should receive more hype. It did have some clichés and stereotypes throughout the novel but all of which are unfortunately still binding to Asians in the real world. The author, though her characters really unpacked some of it conveying a message to readers that it is okay to not be part of the stereotypes but it’s also okay to be part of them as well, also expressing sometimes it is not completely the parents’ faults either but rather society’s expectations. The romance gives slight enemies to lovers energy and the friendships were so precious and makes it more heart breaking when something unexpected happens. Even the characters I did not particular liked grew on me and I was able to appreciate their roles in the story. The writing style not insanely complex but it is very well written and descriptive, it is also quite a fast paced novel and has a reasonable amount of dialogue. The main focus of the story is coming to terms with one’s identity and what that means to the main character while exploring romance and finding friends who are like you. It is nice to see that family is not forgotten about, especially since Young Adult novels often do and are mentioned throughout the novel showing the importance of family to the main character even if they hold her back from pursuing her dreams. 
I also love when authors add a note to the reader whether it is a dedication or in the acknowledgements, but the author added a page giving background information and a thank you to the reader which I appreciate. Throughout the novel she added a random fact perfect to the storyline and I enjoy that you can learn something like that from a novel. 
I am very much looking forward to reading the second novel but am a little sad to see it is not from Ever’s perspective but of Sophie’s since I grew quite attached to Ever. In other views Sophie will definitely be an interesting character to see her thoughts so I’m sure “Loveboat, Reunion” will be a fantastic read as this one. 
Overall, I really loved this novel, especially the representation as well as family dynamics and connecting friendships. 

Quotes 
“you don’t do anything to draw attention to your asianess,”
“my parents would slit their throats for my happiness, and in return my future is their future.”
“I don’t know a soul here but, in this moment, the loneliness I feel is overridden by the larger strangeness of blending in.”
“even among a horde of Chinese Americans I’m not Chinese American enough.”
“I opened my lunch box to shrieks of horrified, “what are those?” and I begged my mom not to pack me any more weird Chinese food.”
“we need to take back these stereotypes.”
“I’m not the only one taking charge of my identity this summer.”
“I used to avoid looking in the mirror with my Caucasian friends, because my eyes seemed small in comparison.”

Recommendations 
Looking to find Asian representation, this book is for you. It heavy explores being Asian and the pressures/stereotypes it comes with as well as growing into the person you are meant to be.

Pros 
Explores family dynamics, finding friends who are the same as you, coming to terms with one’s identity and a “unexpected” sweet romance. 

Cons 
Nothing in particular at this moment. 

The Best Lies by Sarah Lyu

The Best Lies by Sarah Lyu

Trigger warning: obsessive friendship, toxic relationships, child abuse, death\murder. 

Age rating: 14+

Overall rating: 4.8 out of 5. 

Genres: Young Adult, psychological thriller. 

A spoiler free summary 
Remy Tsai knew what every day looked like.
She used to be content, with Jack, her boyfriend, and her best friend Elsie, who understood her in every way, like no other.
But within one night everything changed. Jack, shot, is now dead and Elise was the one to pull the trigger. As a police investigation takes place, Remy must sift through her own memories to look for the truth. Was it self-defence? Or something that could destroy the one friendship that meant everything to her. 

Review 
The best lies was a really enjoyable read, an unexpected one to be honest. The author’s writing is simple yet there were many golden moments that were both relatable and devastating.  The alternating timeline may have been a little confusing at times as many novels which use concurrent time line are usually, but it allowed for a better understanding of the mentality of the main character, Remy. What initial attracted me to the novel was the fact there was an Asian main character and that the novel was not a fantasy one and I really appreciated that race was not the character’s “flaw” or overcoming nature and was rather a part of them. I loved how the story explored the nature of friendships and the obsessive behaviour which evolved from trauma [in this novel] was not completely unrealistic, but rather something that was blown up and dramatized. The toxic side of family in relation to immigrants and the “perfect family” with the romanticised “American dream” was well addressed and which is unfortunately very real for many, even if that is not the parents’ intentions. I enjoyed how happiness was not forced throughout the book and this definitely affected the ending as well. Something about a best friendship that ends in tragedy is touchingly disturbing to anyone as friendships are part of the human experience which many people crave. 
Overall, I really enjoyed the novel and took great pleasure in seeing the disaster of romanticising friendships through trauma connection and support when no one is there for you. 

Quotes
“Love is the weapon they wield when it suits them, the justification for everything they do.”
“But then there is the first one, the very first trauma, and isn’t that where everyone’s story begins?”
“What hurt the most was knowing that she was enough for me, but I wasn’t enough for her.”
“Her pain doesn’t diminish my pain. It’s a false dichotomy.”
“Suffering isn’t romantic. It’s just painful.” 

Recommendations
If you are looking for a disturbing novel in which friendships can go very wrong written through concurrent timelines and the truth of how trauma effects everyone differently, this novel is for you. 

Pros: The main character was Asian; it explored the idea of the American dream for immigrant families and the struggles that come with presenting as the “perfect” family and how some relationships aren’t meant to be. 

Cons: Nothing in particular sticks out. 

Does The Best Lies by Sarah Lyu have Queer Representation?

No, it does not. 
Unless you may consider Elise’s obsessive nature towards Remy as being some sort of twisted romantic love, there is no clear queer representation.